U Lied

Just like that…I am replaced.
All of our memories, dumped-as if all these years
Meant nothing. Did they mean anything? How long,
How long
HOW LONG were U planning 2 “check out”?!

I was always afraid this day would come
Our 1st, 2nd or 3rd date I whispered 2 U
During an intimate kiss after a lovely date
I whispered-between kisses
“Please, don’t hurt me.”
“I won’t.” Was your reply

I believed U. The stacks were against us
Yet still, we pressed on-we believed in
Love..we believed in what we felt.
O, I fought, even fought U
I felt myself falling-hard
Year, after year. despite our petty disagreements
I continued 2 fall.

I’d moved 2 Alaska if U had asked me
I gave up my familiar-what I knew, what was mine
2 follow U..2 follow love
Only 4 my fears that U would abandon me
Abandon us
2 come true

And now I’m stuck. My best friend no longer
Desires me, my company, my conversation,
My body, my essence, my ideas, my laughter,
My tears, my cooking, my quirks, my dreams,
My desires, my fantasies, my music, my voice,
My warmth, my commitment, my love

Nothing is right now, my very presence makes U
Unhappy. Breaks my heart every single day. I’m
Stuck between, what 2 do?, why should I have 2?!,
Fuck that shit!, fight 4 him!, Girl U stupid!!..
Maybe stuck is the wrong word, shocked is more
Like it. Although this was 1 of my biggest fears
I didn’t see this coming

Nights are the hardest. We once talked all day long
via ‘hangouts’ or text. Now U chat with her. She knows
your day 2 day..she’s who U return to after a long day..
I’m not even a thought..Just
Like
That

I often think about that night, In my living room
U were on your knees
During an intimate kiss after a lovely date
I whispered-between kisses
“Please, don’t hurt me.”
“I won’t.” Was your reply

U LIED


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